Fuck this shit I'm returning to the fucking west heated bank in 4 days this sucks... If you consider joining the military in your country don't fucking do it, they give you impossible missions, you have to accomplish, and if you don't someone will surely die D:
The thought that keeps me sane is that I only guard positions, maybe shots here and there, some explosions over there. But that doesn't matter because I know other infantry soldiers been through a lot worse shit than me, I mean I can't imagine what's it like to be in a war for a week after what I've been through, how the hell did soldiers of WW2 did it? some of them, those who didn't die handled it for 6 years! this thought keeps me sane. Fucking shit reality why can't there be peace in this screwed world... While you live in your house, have a fun job with fun friends I guard your life with a fucking tavor and risk my life.. This is just bullshit reality.
If you have a question from an Israeli soldier whose in the fucking field you have a chance online now
Some reality shit that's been in the past months
guard a damn boring position, hear gunshots here and there sometimes
patrol a damn boring position, hear gunshots here and there sometimes
drive in a vehicle then get rocks in your fucking windows
stand in your position and get rocks in your head
live in that constant fear you'll have to be 50 k"m away from your homeland deep in Lebanon fighting Hezbolluh
live in that fear that you'll have to stable situations in Syria by force, while wearing gas masks
live in that fear that you won't succeed stopping a suicide bombing attack and you failed in your duty
live in that fear that you missed a terrorist who wants to kidnap few people by only by a fucking second
live in that fear that Israel will decide to send you to fucking Gaza in 2 weeks like in 2009
get wounded by those fucking rocks
get shouted by activist who think you're the fucking president and you can actually control what's going politically on
get shouted by Arabs who think you're the fucking president
guard a fucking assault rifle, with 5.56 bullets
guard a fucking explosions storage
guard a fucking base
guard a fucking civilian house
I could keep writing what's reality like but fuck that to lazy to actually force remembering what's going on, these are only the thoughts that came first to mind. Being an infantry soldier fucking sucks. Despite risking your life you do feel like you save lifes, there is a feeling sometimes that 100 lifes don't worth it but you still keep doing it, I have no idea how I do it.
Reality is nothing like call of duty, in CoD this is fun, in reality this is hell by all means. But every Israeli passed this, I'm no different
Reality in the middle east is far harder than you see in the media in your country.. while you enjoy watching TV on the couch. Israelis, Palestinians, Egyptians, Syrians, Jordanians, Iraqis and even Iranians die constantly due to fighting. I might sound like an asshole, but do you enjoy sitting on your couch watching how the dollar drops? because I wish I could be you sometimes. I'm asking this because me and you were no different 2 years ago, we both played video games, can you imagine I'm going to a war next year while you get to enjoy life?